Through it all.. God is so good!!!

So recently there has been so much change going on... Some relationships and friendships are ending, some beginning, some are starting over. I thank God for the people he is placing in my life, and even more so for the people he is removing from my life. Its sad to know that some of those people are family members, but hey it is wat it is. My own mother has completely lost it and went off the deep end for the uptenth time. This isnt the first time shes acted like this, but I think I explained a lot about her in my last blog post, so umm yeah. now she has taking her bashing and craziness to twitter... Shes doing all this knowing that one she looks dumb because shes my mother, two she looks dumb because shes 40 years old, and three she looks dumb cuz she knows I know the truth. She says one thing on twitter, and another on facebook... o_O Really.. anyway Im not going to bash her, nor am I going to go back and forth with her or let people know who and how she really is... Ima let God handle it cuz he seems to have been doing a lot of handling things lately.. Anyway, of course Ive been dealing with a lot lately, but God has been keeping me and placing me around the people I should and need to be around.. Although some things are still being worked out, I have joy. Im happy I went through what I went through because I wouldnt be growing if I didnt. God had to strip me of everything in order for me to return back to him. Now I dont think anyone should let it get to the point like I did where he takes all and gives you the worse spiritual beating ever, but hey sometimes thats what he has to do... Im glad that everything he has taken, he is restoring and making it ten times better... Now Ill admit sometimes I fail. I let people and things get to me, and I drop the ball and go off. I have been on a cursing fast and yesterday I said some words boy oh boy.. All because I allowed ignorance to make me mad. Something I have no control over.. People are going to continue to do what they do and say what they say, but its my test... and I cant continue failing and allowing people to take me to the place I dont want to be. I cant say I dont care, but I must say God knows me and he knows my heart, and he knows Im not even half of what people claim I am... Someone told me yesterday that every time Satan sees you trying to do right and trying to get close to God, he brings up something crazy.. Something that he knows has pulled you back in the past, and he knows can easily grab you once again... Its a test, and its up to us to pass or fail, with
Gods help. So I had to ask God for forgiveness, and he knows I have been fighting hard not to go ham on folks... lol So even after I talked to him and was just so upset at myself for allowing things to disturb me, he granted me favor and got me the job I wanted...  Now you cant tell me God isnt merciful and good!!! Theres no one like him... I know that all my praying, and fasting, and worshipping isnt in vain.. He is hearing and seeing it all and that is whats up!!! Today I got an unexpected and very shocking email today... from someone I thought Id never talk to.... I had been wanting to talk with this person, but I was just going to leave it alone... But she emailed me, and said some things that were so, I cant even explain... I was shocked to hear from her but glad at the same time.. I believe that email was God as well, letting me know that everyone aint like everyone, and some people are trying to move on just like I am... SN Im just like ok God I see you.. Turning things around just like you said you would. Now all I need to do is continue looking forward and leaving old things behind me.. I cant keep picking up chains that have already been broken.. and I cant keep allowing people to bind me with chains, that they want to see keep a hold of me... I gotta keep fighting to the end, and its been rough I must say, but Ive been through a lot and Ive gotten through a lot, this is just another testimony that Ill have under my breath.. So if you read my blog, pray for me and I hope God blesses whoever lays eyes on this as well. Ive come a long way and I plan to go further... I must say tho, Through it all... God is so good!!!